Rant

Its been a LONG ASS TIME....Lets catch up shall we!!!

All I do is work! I never get to go out anymore...The sad thing is im missing the beginning of Gay Pride weekend. Im quite upset about it and really don't want to miss out on it. But it comes with the territory of having this job and well...I gotta do what I gotta do :(

Anyways I had a well rather shitty but yet one of those conversations with a friend that I would say made me realize something.

I thought I was over her...I really was...I tried not to talk about her or even think about her. Recently this method has not been working for me. I saw her last weekend and it really bothered me...well for about 5 mins...I am so lucky to have such amazing people around me!

All the good things about her went out the window when she said all that junk to me...over the phone...how I did not want kids and how i was not gay enough and how i did not have any money...you know i thought she really knew me...I opened myself up to her and I NEVER DO THAT with ANYONE...when it was all said and done...its like she went into my chest grabbed a hold of my heart tore it out if my chest cavity looked at it and stomped it on the ground.

Vivid huh...i just feel im not really ready to say what i want to say. Im just afraid that I am going to say something I will regret. Seriously I wish she would fuck back off to Calgary and I never see her again...and take her goons with her.

Anyways there is plenty more to write....im tired...im hitting the sack

Cheers