Scattered

The last 2 months have been very weird!

I had a great summer with a beautiful woman....I went to BC with my family and my girl and seriously I never had so much fun with my family in my entire life...I felt like I had to hold my girl's hand to get her to do whatever and I started loosing interst when I came back from BC.

So sad to say we broke up mid October...I think it was just all that was going on and major situations just hit us from the beginning (im not going to get into detail ).

I really miss my family, after spending so much time with them for the week they were here visiting I just miss them hard and would love to go back and just re live all that fun.

I need to get back on that path to self discovery, and loving myself again because im not happy at all....i seriously need to take a look into my life....focus on my goals and stick to it....i pretty much want all my ducks all lined up in a row.

I still can't believe that I have been at the same job for nearly 9 months.....CRAZY...im glad that I am prooving to myself that I can keep a job :)

I no longer want to be that lost soul anymore...i have to grow up and not depend on ma and pa anymore. There getting older and need to have there own lives away from the kids.