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Its been a while

Pretty much everything is almost coming a full circle. I'm ready to hit the books in the fall! SOOO excited, I know that once I'm in school the partying will tame down....BIG TIME!! I look forward to it. I had my share of good times. Now its time to grow up get my ducks lined up in a row and start going on the path less traveled by!

I'm really worried about my grandfather. I found out last weekend that he went to the hospital. The doctors opened him up to see if anything was wrong. I will not go into detail about what the doctors did but lets just say that we will find out the result come the end of the week...I hope its good news then bad. The family is freaking out and all ready have him half dead. I just want them to stop worrying and start being positive, because then he will be positive and get through this!! That's all I want right now for him, I love my Grampie so much I don't know what I would do if he passes all of a sudden. I will not have enough money to fly home to attend his funeral, Christ mom is always right...all that nagging and griping.

You know I have been stepped on, walked on all over screwed over by people that I "cared" for so much...Its come to a point where I have no communication with them what so ever. In the last year they have cause me so much grief and so much pain...it pretty much consumed me, mind...body and soul. Talked to a friend one night told her what was going on and she said something that has really sticked to me and have used...never have I been so much happier! She said...Take all that pain, sorrow and grief and tell the universe that you are giving it back to the person that has cause you to feel like this. Seriously I have never had such a weight lifted off me!

I'm scared to express my views and opinions towards anyone because I feel that I don't have all the info to back up what I am saying and that feeling dumb is not a good thing at all. I was always told to keep my views and opinions to myself for fear that I would hurt someones feelings....but i feel right now I have to say this....

I have been watching the coverage in regards to Miss California Carrie Prejean (she was the one that doesn't believe in same sex marriage and Prop 8)...and well its her opinion and she is allowed to say what she has to say. Now its my turn for my opinion...I think its very small minded for her to say the things she has said. Love is love...straight or gay...Gay and Lesbians should be allowed to get married, and share all things equal as heterosexual couples, we deserve it just as much as they do and for her to get up there and say the things she said was just down right mean. Just for her saying that...Karma is going to get her....so I say media people leave her alone....its all on tape seriously...it will come back to bite her in the ass years later....trust me...I have faith and I think all of you do too!!

Until next time

Cheers